“The Girl”

“It’s hurting me to see how much you’ve changed.

You’re not the same girl I fell in love with. I miss the girl who smiled at everyone she saw, stranger or a friend. I miss the girl who could never finish telling a funny story or a joke because she was laughing so hard. You used to have a light in your eyes and a glow about you. You used to call every clownfish Nemo, every lion Simba, and every high heel was your glass slipper. When you greeted your bestfriends, you used to hug them tightly like you hadn’t seen them in years and could never let them go again, even if it had been minutes. You were the strongest person I know. 

I don’t know where the girl I fell in love with went, but I hope she can come back. 

Goddamn it, try to come back.

I know you don’t want to, and I have no idea why, but try please.

Try for everyone who loves you.

Try to get your light back.

I don’t want to say ‘goodbye’.”

Thursday Thoughts

Quick question: When was the last time you did something for the first time? 

I don’t remember mine either. I admit, new things and changes scare the beejeezus out of me. I think way too much about the what-if’s, when in fact, that already is a what-if if I didn’t do it. Life is one ironic game, but it’s definitely a game worth playing no matter how much of a pain-in-the-ass it gets. Because I honestly believe that there is an unlimited amount of things that we can become or do if we embrace life and all that it is.

Here’s a few words I’d like to share that I always remind myself to… just live. 

“Never be afraid to try something new— because life gets boring when you stay within the limits of what you already know. “

One final thought: Go for it. Whether it ends good or bad, it was an experience.

You Are So Much More… 

“You are not your past. You are not the pain you’ve suffered. You are not your scars. You are not the mistakes you’ve made. You are not your weak moments. You are not your failed connections. You are not people’s opinions. You are not the false idea people conjure up in their heads. 

You are more than that.

You are more beautiful than that. You are more intricate than that. You are more divine than that. You are more vulnerable than that. You are more exquisite than that. 

You are more than what people think, feel or say.

You are so much more.

Saffiya Series: PLAYTIME 


It’s amusing that no matter how colorful everything around her is, this is how she sees them. This early phase of her life is probably the most interesting for her, and I’m so happy that I get to witness and help her make sense of what’s around her and what’s ON her (as this is also the stage where she starts to discover her tiny hands).

/My girl is growing up so fast and I’m not sure how I’ll feel about it: worried because I feel like I may not have enough time with her; or excited because then I get to sleep again (!!!) But I know that as she grows, my love for her grows too, a hundred times more even.